Relaxed Reads: Ghost in My Closet
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There is a ghost in my closet.
It eats at me like moths consuming
cotton, savoring every mouthful like
sugar-coated candy, until I am a
skeleton made of wirey coat hangers,
bent and misshapen, as if all I was ever
good for was to unlock doors or to
check the oil.
Hearts hang in the stretched out sleeves
of sweaters, hand me downs too big,
didn’t fit, never fit, won’t ever fit
they hang like wet socks laid out to dry
dried out belts are jerky in the mouth
of the ghost.
The doors of my closet breathe in and out,
hollow lungs made of pillowcases,
chiffon dresses too thin to keep out the chill
the ghost puts on tattered sneakers
and tap dances in the boxes stacked
on the shelf, steeped in stained dress pants
and these made your thighs look fat
and other things that I thought would make
me feel beautiful.
A foggy film webs through my belongings
the ghost taints them with a self-hate song
cut and dry my favorite scarves
drink up the leftover lotion bottles and
outdated perfume and suck out the
smell of cedar and used up tissues
carried in pockets of well worn ghosts
that cloak an empty closet.